Careful What You Wish For?

pulling_out_hairMy life has done a full 360. I went from sitting home most days bored to death to never having a free moment to myself. It’s been awhile since I posted and I need to if nothing but to blow off stress steam, flowing freely from my ears. I took a job as the executive director of a local very small nonprofit which was to begin the end of April. I’d started training in the Fall since I’m new to running a non-profit. Well my first big test was to be three weeks in February when the current director went on vacation. Well she went and had an accident on her first day of vacation and is now on medical leave until right before she retires! I jumped in and what I began to see was how messed up this non profit was. It was lead with the directors heart instead of as a business, which is has to be in order to survive. So I had to immediately start cutting costs, hunting down things and then reporting them as I saw fit to the board of director’s president. It’s been extremely stressful just doing that but then you throw in what else I have to do and I’m on overload.

Let me tell you about the job and don’t misunderstand I wanted this job…bad. The job pays very very badly so I have to continue all the other jobs I did before. I run what’s called the Children’s Rights Council of NW Ohio, we have a terrible name because it sounds like we are all lawyers, we aren’t even close. What we do is provide the place, security and monitors to observe and take notes on visitations between a parent who has been awarded court ordered supervised visitation with their child(ren) frequently it’s been a long time since they’ve seen each other. We use volunteers to handle sitting in and observing, don’t get me started on volunteers. Any who what you have to take into account is why the court is saying supervised visitation and let your mind wander. Sometimes we get parents who could be your next door neighbors and sometime we get parents who have mental health issues, domestic violence issues, molestation charges, and a vast number of other reasons. That’s the gist of that. The thing is you are usually dealing with very angry people, parents who resent having to bring their children to us for visits and are angry at their exes and we get the other parent who is angry at the ex, being accused of something by the ex etc.. and who probably hasn’t seen their child for months….even years. That’s the hard part. Sometimes I have to do things I don’t want to do, like deny a parent a visit because of bad behavior, to see a parent who seems so good with their child get denied more visitation, a different type of visitation etc… and we see children who are scared, nervous, angry or just sullen because they are 0ld enough they shouldn’t have to be there but it has to be there.

ME ME ME

ME ME ME

So, I love this job, I love being busy but I’m not handling time management very well, stress very well, the weird hours I have to work and still not having anyone to share my life with-not that I have time for that either. When I talk to people I swear all I do is talk about me, it’s not because I’m narcissistic it’s because I’m the only thing interesting in my life…in a non narcissistic way, understand? I have no one else to bounce this stuff off of and so everyone who takes the time to talk with me gets a blast of me me me…I apologize for that..you know who you are.

I’m done for now…talking about me…at least here it’s ok- you don’t have to read it(did you make it this far?) and I get to talk about me! Love and smootchies to all!

Careful What You Wish For?

Something Important to Remember

IMG00031-20120326-0753I know the word introvert is all the rage these days but if you know one or think you might know one remember this. We need to do some decompression after lots of activity. The more time I don’t get down time I start getting very tense. My 15 year old has learned this, she sees the signs and will usually say I’m going to stop talking you need some time, pretty impressive for a 15 yr old and especially for my daughter who talks non stop mostly like a Seinfeld episode.

I’m a bit crazed and it’s only day 2 of the week. I know meditation, yoga etc.. I just really need to sit and bead or read but my brain starts going over the day or all the things I didn’t do whilst doing a whole lot of something else.

I’m hoping next week will just be a regular week, scheduled and easy but I know better.

Something Important to Remember
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