Last night I decided to do something really different and I made an appointment to do a past life regression hypnosis session. I was so excited about it, I’ve been interested for awhile and I thought maybe I could get to the bottom of some fears I have that have developed over the years. So I went, I was extremely tired, I had orginially told the lady doing it that I was going to drink because it’s really hard for me to relax, I thought being as tired as I was would work just as well. We sat for a long time just chit chatting about our kids. I filled out a short form saying what I would like to accomplish and we were off to the comfy chair and blankie.
So I felt pretty relaxed because I was that tired. We began, I don’t know if it was working because just as we were getting started the wonderful guide had a coughing fit really bad, I felt really sorry for her. So after a length of time the recording was restarted and we began again. The beginging is just running through your body relaxing muscles, that went fine, then we hit the one thing I cannot do, visualize. If you tell me to imagine a beautiful garden, I can’t I see nothing in my minds eye, see a mirror, nope. I discovered I cannot visualize things. If you said to me imagine your sitting on the swing in your backyard I can pull up that memory but if it’s an imaginary thing in my back yard I can’t. No obviously I have an imagination or my dreams of zombies would never happen so that works. But I cannot pull images up. I can see words, think about being scared would cause me to see the word not feel it.
I was so upset that I couldn’t do that I couldn’t relax so the session was a no go, although I had her whole technique on tape to try at home. Tonight I’l drink and listen still really tired. I do not how to create or learn to visualize this is a brain thing. I can’t relax if I have to think about trying to do something I can’t. I’m not really that creative either. Sure I do creative things but mostly I follow patterns and get ideas from looking at someone else’s designs. I’m frustrated. I wish I knew how to fix it. Some people can close their eyes and see a red box with a white dot in the middle, I see absolutely nothing. If you tell me to close my eyes and see an Amazon.com box, no problem.
I did go on the internet I’m not the only one, but some how it doesn’t make me feel better.Imagine all the people Living for today