Hit with a Whammy

depressionSometimes, out of the blue, my depression will ramp up when normally it’s controlled quite well by medication. I don’t know if it’s the change in time and the darkness, or the time of the year, or always struggling just to survive with very little income and a house falling apart around me, but it’s full-on bad right now. When I wake up in the morning I usually am very happy to start my day, but lately, it’s like I have no purpose, no reason to not just stay in bed and sleep. Not good.

How to fix it? I have no clue – I need to find something to be excited about. It can be the littlest thing but it gets my serotonin or whatever it is ramped back up. My surroundings depress me and overwhelm me. My job feels like I’m swimming in jello jigglers (that really thick jello, for the uninformed). My life is full of meaningful things but I can’t seem to grasp them right now. omg, I’m depressing myself more just reading this. This is what depression is, in case you’ve never encountered it. It’s not the blues it’s thicker and more clingy and it wraps you up and doesn’t want to let you out.

I will fight the good fight, this too will pass.

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Hit with a Whammy
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  1. Tracy says:

    Sorry. I do sympathize and I believe I know how you feel. Sometimes it just is so all encompassing!

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