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I’m changing this to my journal type postings You’ll get bored pretty quick but a recent podcast recommended keeping one, and since i seem to be an exhibitionist online this is it.

I listened to this great podcast last night, great for only me because it had to do with things to do for non profit management my new passion, I say passion because it’s much more than a job. Anyway what I learned is some podcasts should not be listened to at night, I must have started the thing 3 times…I kept falling asleep and still never finished it plus I wanted to take notes…not something I usually do but thinking about past relationships maybe I should have 🙂

A "wizard" troll doll, manufactured ...

A “wizard” troll doll, manufactured by Russ Berrie in the 1990s (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Relationships ugh. I give up. I go on the sites and see what’s out there but for one thing I only have horrible pictures of me which doesn’t help my chances of anyone responding, it’s always about looks first no matter what anyone says. Guy looks like a troll doll it ain’t happening for me! So I just don’t put any pressure on myself. With the new job hopefully there will be more interactions with professional men instead of just dead beat parents and no that’s it just dead beat parents. Not a great pool to pick from.

OMG Money is such an issue this month. 2,000 for health insurance, 2400 for real estate taxes, 700 for a down payment on my daughters car, 25 dog licence, auto insurance I don’t even want to know plus all the usual bills. February is a no extra spending month experiment with my sister!

Discovering some great new recipe books for vegan cooking, exciting. Every morning I write on a slip of paper one thing that stands out in the previous on the previous day as something i am grateful for. ’nuff said no I mean it I’m bored with this.



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So Much On My Mind Except When I’m Awake

Kamisuki (Combing the hair), A colour woodbloc...

Kamisuki (Combing the hair), A colour woodblock print, Japan, Taish? era, 1920 Goy? (1880-1921) (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Yeah I’ve been gone quite awhile for a lot of different reasons, the main reason I’ve been very busy. I’m in training to take over a non profit, Children’s Rights Council of NW Ohio, as their Executive Director. Running a non-profit is extremely complicated I’m so glad I started learning very early and still wish I had a mentor other than the lady running it. Because this job will not pay very well, I am not doing it for the money, I have to continue all the jobs I do now, so more busy.

Now about the love life….non existent. I was involved with someone and was really happy when it was good but when it was bad it was really bad. He was controlling and basically wanted me to think the same way he did about everything. The last straw was a discussion, seriously this is true, about what happened in Ferguson. I said something like shooting someone, what was it 9 times is excessive. He blew up at me, there was yelling, name calling etc.. I’m to always think that the police are always right and it’s kill or be killed at all times. It was not pretty and went on for several days until I finally just quit I couldn’t take it anymore. Inside I knew it wasn’t going to work but the good times were so good and so natural. I’m quitting even trying to date for awhile, honestly I don’t have the time or energy for it. I’m sad because I liked spending time with someone but now I don’t even have that time.

I have my sister to think about and along with my kids is high priority. Anything she wants I will get it for her some how. My kids are a whole different issue and I won’t talk about here because they could happen upon it. They’re good really.

Decided to get my hair chopped off for a couple of reasons one it’s so damaged and two I didn’t have anyone in my life to say “I love long hair” which is a common thing with men. It just annoys the heck out of me when a woman says no I can’t cut my hair my husband would never speak to me again. I was guilty of the same thing thinking I had to not do this because my dude because my dude would hate it. Please, I don’t think a man would think twice about shaving their head, growing facial hair etc… Sorry I’m a little irritated with the male species.

Tired of being broke! I swear money suckage everywhere! When I take the non profit full time, it will help but they only pay once a month! I have too much stuff and no where to put it, another time and energy suckage. The great news I have lost over 20 lbs! So very happy about that .

Any who that’s what I’ve been up do. How are you?

So Much On My Mind Except When I’m Awake
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