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Why Get Out of Bed

10931303_10153036425538630_4992521187872609201_nI woke up this morning and laid in bed. I couldn’t for the life of me think of a reason to get out of bed(Giraffe finally got me up, long story). I have nothing to look forward to, all I do is work. I can’t have a normal conversation because all there is is work and my kids. Work and kids are great but it doesn’t maintain a long conversation or in-depth except if I get on my soapbox about work or kids. Would you want to sit down with that? I wouldn’t.

This week has been so hard. I had to testify for hours and a mom lost her two kids, she’s lost 4 altogether. It was the right decision but it will never ever feel good. In the long run I will focus back to the kids, they are never out of my thoughts, but as a mom you can’t help but put yourself in that position and honestly I can’t I can only imagine how that must feel. Parents love their kids, they just don’t always do it right.

Busy week to look forward to I guess. Almost every day and night is booked. Mostly work stuff 🙂  Some good training to look forward to…for work. Where does a single woman go to meet people all alone. Yes there is church but I don’t find that to be a great place for match making. It doesn’t help that most of the time I have absolutely no interest in relationships. I just need a companion to call to do things with, I do not want any kind of serious thing. It holds absolutely no interest to me. I did something stupid and I know I did what I did because of my serious lack of self worth or not to hurt someones feelings – this would be the second time in a year.

I got so angry with myself, which is  good thing. I’m so not happy with my body, and there is only 2 things I can do. Exercise and eat right. Trying yet again. Always after trial I am full of the urge to control things like exercise, food, house.

Food Musings: Short grain brown rice…cook it long enough and it’s like custard. Why do I buy walnuts their taste is obnoxious, or at least the ones from the grocery store. Pecans are the way to go. To me pecans taste like maple syrup.

That is all, have a wonderful day!

Why Get Out of Bed

Well I’m here where’s the snacks?

Back of a box of Scooby Snacks from Suncoast.

Back of a box of Scooby Snacks from Suncoast. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

As usual it’s been a long time since I posted. I haven’t posted for the very best reason I’ve been doing something I really love that keeps me very occupied. My job is so fulfilling to me…except the not getting paid part, that will come I hope before I have to get desperate. I’ve always been one to get bored easily and this is never the case with non-profit. It’s a challenge every day and it gets me out of bed every day.

I’ve come to the conclusion I’ll probably never have a date again and that makes me sad sometimes. It’s really hard when you realize you are not part of something that makes you feel special. Yes I know yaddayaddayadda I don’t need a man to feel special but there is something wonderful about knowing there is somebody out there that fills that void of being a part of something bigger than yourself. I can’t voice it correctly but if you never have someone to call when you just need a hug, or to go out to dinner with or just be with it leaves a little empty place. I’m not whining I swear, it just makes me sad.

I have met and gotten to know so many special people while doing this new job I feel so honored. I will tell anyone reading this to consider volunteering in some way, you start out thinking your are giving something to someone else but if you find the right place you get more than you give. I never ever would have guessed how much volunteering has done for me, it’s an unexplainable joy I wish I could help everyone to share.

Ok so this is a Seinfeld post, really about nothing. Just thought I would jump right in again.

Well I’m here where’s the snacks?
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